I genuinely feel for this guy because I have had my heart broken like this. I have been there, done that and gotten the t-shirt. The t-shirt read, “This sucks.”
On Wednesday I started getting random messages from a fake account on instagram. These messages were from someone saying that they “stole my girlfriend from me”. I ultimately ignored them and just told myself it was someone jealous. i asked her if she knew anything about them and she pretended to be upset and said she didn’t know.
On Friday i was waiting for my girlfriend to finish work to facetime. I called her and i spoke about our relationship and going over how we can do better to avoid fights because we were currently going through a rough time. I was in my feelings talking to her and i felt like something was off. She didn’t seem upset or sad when talking about some of our arguments we had. It took a while but i finally forced it out of her and she actually didn’t have work. She told me straight to my face that she fucked another guy. I have never been so heartbroken in my life. It felt like i was shot by a gun when she told me that. Me being so distraught i asked her how could she do that and still tell me she loves me. She told me that she didn’t want to tell me because i was going to be mad. No guilt, no remorse, no sympathy. She didn’t cry. How can a person say they love you and see a future with you if you are fucking other guys behind my back. I called her all these nasty names, i blocked her on everything, and i was so upset that i told myself i’m going to take all the gifts she gave me and burn everything. i found myself sitting outside in the cold at 4:00am. Honestly probably the roughest night of my life. i’m not suicidal but i felt like dying. I now realized that the guy who was harassing me was this guy she fucked. she knew all along and lied to me.
I never slept one hour that night. I sat there paralyzed . The next morning she was talking shit on instagram about me. her mom even defended her and told me i was a manipulative liar. Fast forward to Sunday. I have tried to do all the right follow up actions: spend time with family and friends, distract myself, workout. It’s all temporary. Once i’m home and all alone I fall into a scary hole of depression. I feel alone and all i can think of are negative thoughts in my head. I don’t even know who the fucking guy is and now i’m pretty sure they are dating. I haven’t been eating anything all day long and i’m losing a scary amount of weight. I have a nauseous feeling in my stomach from when i wake up to when i fall asleep.